So this week has had me thinking about all of the bloggers and boss-girl influencers that I follow. Some of them I have followed for years, and I continue to follow them as believe it or not, and without sounding creepy, I’m sorta’ obsessed with them. But why? Some of these girls I don’t know nor have I ever met. I started questioning why it is I follow my favorite bloggers. I mean after years of liking peoples photographs and being a loyal follower you genuinely do begin to feel like you know the person. But who are the people behind the lenses? SO, case in point, I wanted to recreate a little ‘ten things you need to know about me‘ post for all of you sassy huns’ that follow me.
You know when you just know you are 100% into something? Well being a feminist is something I’m super sure of. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I am so for women I feel like I should walk around with a ‘feminist’ t-shirt which incidentally, I actually do. For years women have fought for us to have a significant place in society and now you see us pretty much taking over the world and I couldn’t be prouder. If only I could input the dancing emoij onto the page. Screw the ideologies of women not being equal to men, I happen to think we are better. I did English lit at uni and every essay I managed to do from a feminist perspective and I genuinely finished my dissertation a month early because I was so obsessed with writing from a woman’s point of view. #GIRLPOWER
2. I’m not always confident
When I tell people I’m not really always a confident person they never seem to believe me. I seem to get the ‘yeah right’ kind of response. Perhaps on Instagram I seem and appear to always have this sort of palpable confidence, and if you met me in person you would maybe think because I’m super chatty I’m confident, but inside I’m genuinely a nervous wreck. I admit, not all the time. But there are days/times where I feel I’m lacking all confidence and like any girl, I feel insecure. I think I’m quite good at masking my inabilities or concerns and before entering any situation I’m uncertain about I count to three and think, no you are going to go in there and be you. Does it always work? Perhaps 95% of the time but that isn’t to say inside I’m having to make myself seem confident when really I’m not.
3. Body hang-ups
Like ANY girl – even Gigi Hadid – I too have body hang-ups. You know when you are in a changing room and you look in the mirror and think wow – that happens to me on the reg’. I think over the last year or so I have come to like my body more, but needless to say there are certain parts I would change in a hot second if I could. Thighs and stomach being the main culprits. I think as women none of us are ever happy with everything and that’s actually normal – if normal exists of course. We all have those days where we just scroll through Instagram looking at some of the most beautiful women in the world and want to go and get a gun and shoot ourselves (metaphorically speaking obviously) but the truth is, envying somebody else’s body isn’t going to gain anything and more than likely these beautiful women have an area they themselves aren’t happy with. SO, I’m trying to have a Beyonce moment and shake what my mama’ gave me. Embracing your body gives you a lot more confidence and generally makes you a happier person and I’m all for that.
4. Hopeless romantic
I really am a romantic and I genuinely love love. Who doesn’t? I’ve always been one of those girls that has had a boyfriend and I think partly that’s because I just love having somebody to share things with. Not gonna’ lie, I think the one I’ve got at the moment I’m going to hold onto because he’s a complete babe. Like any girl, I think romance is really important in a relationship. I don’t know how some girls go out with guys that never take them out. I happen to love date nights and spending time with my man just the two of us.
So, some of you may already know that I suffer from anxiety and this is still an on-going thing. I’ve had it for about six years now. If only kicking it’s ass out of my life was as easy as that. That’s the thing about anxiety, it clings onto you for dear life. I have found that managing it is much easier than it used to be, but, whether I like it or not it seems to still make an appearance now and again. I used to be super embarrassed to admit that its something I had, but now I rarely worry about telling people or opening up about it. In fact, I think being more honest about it has helped.
My friends are really important to me and I’ve always been one of those girls that even when they have a boyfriend, making time for friends has never been difficult. I think any girl needs a group of girlfriends and somebody they can call if they need a chat. However, finding a ride or die sort of chick these days is hard. A lot of people can be let downs and if I ever feel a person isn’t trustworthy it’s pretty much a deal breaker for me. I’m not the sort of person that can have a best friend that I don’t completely trust. Each to their own, but it’s just not for me. Surrounding yourself with positive people is so important and I’m lucky to have a group of friends that are all completely different and that I would call for entirely different reasons.
As a blogger, Instagram is a big part of my life and I’d be spot on in saying that we have a love-hate relationship. There are days where I love what I do and adore Instagram but then there are others where I want to launch my phone against the wall and have a break from it. When you get really good engagement and people are liking your content you couldn’t feel better, but when its the opposite obviously this can be quite disheartening. I find myself in this continuous I love you, I hate you, I love you, I hate you limbo and it can drive a gal’ crazy. In all honesty, I think I do need to learn to have some time off from it, even just a few days and just concentrate on real life BUT, this is easier said than done when you’re a blogger.
A question I get quite regularly is ‘how often do you go shopping?’. When I tell people that I pretty much shop all the time they always have a sort of bemused what the fuck look on their face. I feel like saying, I’m a blogger babes. I will admit shopping all the time is a rather stressful hobbie but equally one that I adore. On my phone I have the Zara, Topshop, Mango, HM and Asos apps and these I go on religiously every single day. Maybe even three times a day if I’m lucky. I get a buzz if new items have been added to the ‘new in’ section. Putting something in my basket and buying it before it sells out is just a relief. I know I sound like an addict, and I probably am.
My future is a pretty sensitive topic and it’s the main thing I worry about. I think sometimes I worry too much about what other people think. Not in terms of how I look – in fact this doesn’t bother me at all. But when it comes to people making judgements about my career, it does affect me – even though it shouldn’t. As a twenty-something not knowing what their next step is, it can be really overwhelming. I know what I want to do it’s just achieving it. In the last few months I’ve decided that moving up to Manchester with my man is a must. Even though it’s been on the cards for a while, I’m pretty nervous. I mean living with a boy is quite scary right? They leave the toilet seat up, leave shaving hairs in the sink, clothes on the floor, and sometimes they can just be a total mess. BUT, I’m going to have to suck it up like everybody else.
10. Star sign
As a May baby I’m a Taurian gal’. I know a lot of people believe star signs to be complete crap, but I am really into them. Let’s be honest we all flick to the back of the magazine and can’t resist reading out star signs that week. Taurian’s are known for their dependability, loyalty, strength of will, perseverance, devotion, being opinionated, stubbornness and not being fond of change. All of this describes me down to a tee. The only thing that doesn’t really fit the bill is that we are never in debt. This couldn’t be further from the truth- sorry mum. My credit card is pretty much my best friend.